He'd already suspected it was some thing that CERES was messing with, and not actually him smudging out of existence . . . but he hadn't been certain enough to say anything to anyone about it, or convince himself he wasn't going insane. It had been clear, in the beginning phases, that no one else was noticing his issues. The longer that had gone on, the harder it had been to bring himself to own up to them in front of anyone--especially when he couldn't see himself in a fucking mirror! Part of him had been convinced he looked crazy, or different somehow. He could have looked like anything at all and he'd never fuckin' know--
But it's not even worth thinking about. It's over now--right? Here Tanaka is explaining that it's all just the usual CERES bullshit. He'd started to suspect that when Togami posted to the network about not being able to breathe:]
When Kirigiri went on those tours, she got thrown into some beta version of ViViD, and she told me she started to disappear and could barely breathe. . . . I thought I was goin' crazy, or maybe disappearin' from this place for real, like--
[Like all those people in that fucked up place from earlier. He shudders.]
Anyway--then Togami said he couldn't breathe, and I was like, that's pretty fuckin' suspicious all this stuff's happenin' to us now, huh?
[He stalks away across the room, scrubbing at his eyes with the back of one hand.]
Hey, you can get comfortable and stuff . . . do you even get comfortable? Heh . . .
[It's the first time he's cracked a joke in a few days, and it feels awkward, but comfortingly familiar.]
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[Sigh.
He'd already suspected it was some thing that CERES was messing with, and not actually him smudging out of existence . . . but he hadn't been certain enough to say anything to anyone about it, or convince himself he wasn't going insane. It had been clear, in the beginning phases, that no one else was noticing his issues. The longer that had gone on, the harder it had been to bring himself to own up to them in front of anyone--especially when he couldn't see himself in a fucking mirror! Part of him had been convinced he looked crazy, or different somehow. He could have looked like anything at all and he'd never fuckin' know--
But it's not even worth thinking about. It's over now--right? Here Tanaka is explaining that it's all just the usual CERES bullshit. He'd started to suspect that when Togami posted to the network about not being able to breathe:]
When Kirigiri went on those tours, she got thrown into some beta version of ViViD, and she told me she started to disappear and could barely breathe. . . . I thought I was goin' crazy, or maybe disappearin' from this place for real, like--
[Like all those people in that fucked up place from earlier. He shudders.]
Anyway--then Togami said he couldn't breathe, and I was like, that's pretty fuckin' suspicious all this stuff's happenin' to us now, huh?
[He stalks away across the room, scrubbing at his eyes with the back of one hand.]
Hey, you can get comfortable and stuff . . . do you even get comfortable? Heh . . .
[It's the first time he's cracked a joke in a few days, and it feels awkward, but comfortingly familiar.]